What kind of leader would I be if I didn’t share with you myself? Not much! So here I am exposing myself and what I just went thru in order to perhaps encourage you all to continue on this path, this bridge of incidence, and renounce your old life. Actually the perfect word is ABANDON.

I have been in a “situation” with my SP for about 8 weeks now. I held fast to my conviction and my love for him and us and realized that perhaps I needed to take a few steps back from the situation for my sake. And I did. My fear came up that I was giving up. The actual word is abandoning him in his time of need.

How many times when we left our old self behind and with it our old life, our old ties, our old associations, were we told we were abandoning “them”? Many. So many that I lost count. And each time it hurt like hell and I was tempted to go back, to fit into other’s neat little box saved for Karen. This time I said F THAT B S.

And consequently my life again took off and I raised my self up several levels in the last 8 weeks. Each time the feeling I was getting further and further away from my SP. And I was.

The issue at hand is he is refusing to turn away from the lies of the serpent and is literally mesmerized by it’s song. We have discussed this dynamic at length. His mom is a psychotherapist and my SP is educated on the workings of the mind according to the schools of thought that he studied. He was soaking up Neville’s teachings left and right and he was literally transforming his life right in front of my eyes. Then he came to a fork in the road which he’s come to before with me and he decided that he was going to turn back and hide. AGAIN. He’s that much into fear. I cannot force him to make a move he doesn’t want to take right now.

I continued my life and I surpassed even my wildest expectations in several areas. I have a YouTube Channel; a website, a business card, local coaching clients and a life that is enriching and exciting as each day dawns. I gave up my old self. I abandoned the old Karen that stayed with people who refused to move off their throne of fear. I always capitulated and soothed and took the hit and then we both lost. This time I refused. I indeed have abandoned him in his mind.

So what do we do in this situation? Many return to their place in another’s script and relinquish their dreams. I’ve done that too many times to count. Many revise the shit out of the situation and manipulate and coerce and I turned away from that these past 8 weeks. I accepted things as they are so that I could see what was what with ME. Then I revised myself. As Neville taught later in his life REVISE ONLY SELF.

I am admitting to abandoning him at this time. And I will not interfere but I will raise him up to his highest aspirations freed from the tyranny of the Old Man. In his time. God is with him. I am freed.

Thank you Daniel. You delivered me. I love you. I will unconditionally accept and respect BOTH of us.

Thank you Neville. Thank you Father, you are with me.